Dumb Date.

I had a shitty date 2nite. I'm going to describe it..but I don't want u to think that its a roast because its not. A guy on facebook asked me out on a dinner date. I was a little surprised because I haven't had that happen before. Honestly, online, people usually ask to hangout or to have sex. Lol I know...but its true.

Anyhoo, I agreed to the date and went in with no expectations. We could be better off as friends, not be compatible at all, be super into each other, decide to skip it all and just fuck or whatever. So we meet up at the time and place that he chose, he asked me if I ate and I said no, we get to the restaurant and he then tells me that he ate before he got here and was too full to eat a meal. He decided he would get a small desert and something to drink.

I felt weird because I didn't want to eat a whole meal while he ate a brownie. He then asked me if I wanted to leave and go to Coffee Shop. I thought he meant an actual coffee shop and not another restaurant named Coffee Shop, across the street. I said yes, and off we went. I was confused at first, but I went along with it. There was no desert menu (cuz they prolly show it to u after the meal) but he knew the menu and ordered a brownie and iced tea...you know what I ordered? Water. That's what I fucking ordered. "And what will u have?" "I'll have water. Thanks."

It was all downhill after that. I could not hide my disappointment, my face never lies. You know..I just don't get how u can set something like this up and show up with a full belly.

Ok, lets say that he lied. Maybe there was some other reason that he didn't want to share. He should have canceled. As a grown man, when u make plans to go out on a date, u should take accountability and try to make things right when they go wrong. There was no damage control. Just my water and his brownie.

In his defense, he seemed like a really nice guy and he really tried to get to know me and was asking lots of questions. He really tried to keep the convo going. But, I was hungry and annoyed...so it was a wrap.

We obviously won't be going on another date...ever. But I wish him the best of luck.

****ONE MORE THING****

I almost forgot about this part. While we were sitting at The Coffee House, he was trying to keep the convo going and actually said "Tell me about your last ex.." I thought it was so absurd....that I blocked it out. Who the fuck brings up failed relationships and ex's on a FIRST date?? a.mess.

Dummy.

To Date

I have been wanting to write this blog but I have been so tired and distracted. I went on a "non" date (sort of a date..but not as formal) this Sunday and it was ok. Very attractive guy, nice body, great fashion sense...super sweet and affectionate. We would cross the street and he would gently place his hand on my back and.... I was taken back a little. Who is this man treating me with respect? lol And like a lady as well! It wasn't bad..but it is something I prefer to do to somebody else.

I would like to say this man is like sex walking. Yes...if sex could walk..it would be him. Good lord...I want to put a hurting on this man. But...we play the same position if you know what I mean. He said he is willing to try something new..but I kinda dont believe him. He calls me when he says he is going to and if he doesn't he apologizes. Nice! I feel really weird because I am out of my comfort zone. I haven't dated in so long I am not sure what to do.

I am extremely affectionate and I love to have my hands all over who I am with..but is that too much right now? Of course it is! But...I have to get use to going at a different speed. The last time I entertained anybody in that kind of an intimate manner was my ex. That was close to 3 years in the making...so it cannot be the same. Bleh.

I dont want a relationship because I wasn't to move but Im just going to let it flow.

You Datin'?

After some further thinking, I am ready to date. Not ready for a relationship..but I think I should get into the dating scene before I turn into a weirdo. I haven't done this in close to 4 years now. Almost 3 years with one person and about one year getting over it while trying to find direction has added up pretty quick. Im kinda excited..Im willing to switch my standards up a bit for the sake of getting my feet wet.

Lets do it.

Go Mikey.